somehow disappointed day but happy with Taylor Swift!!!!

Hmmm, the feedback on my story was half what I expected and the other half part I admitted that I was a tad bit disappointed. Well. they were giving good feedback to me but somehow I wanted more feedback about my story. Even the truth won’t hurt me, it will just make me want to write more, becoming even better in expressing myself.

At least this week, I got more ideas for my next writing task. The task is to describe a person or place, can be real or imaginary. I am quite excited about this one because I want to write about the imaginary incredible funny places and people I have seen in my dreams before. The only problem is I like to procrastinate my writing, always want to delay it till the last minute. And, the thing that I am afraid is that somehow it is gonna be a bit more difficult to put down what I see on my thoughts into writing. I guess I have a bit of weakness in the visual part of my writing.

In another day of my work life, this is the first time I felt like a stupid person. I am really regretting the incident even until now. I have to work on forgiving myself for this incident and move on with my life by learning on my indeed grave mistakes. I am still pissed off right now as well because I have to train a new staff this week. You have to be really patient with them, hopefully they turn out to be smarter than I think than the standard that I think they are.

Another problem on workplace,  I’ve just been told that two of my colleagues will not be working on one day on next next week. I am bit disappointed that I have to send the BLOODY invoices going around the BLOODY complex by my own AGAIN! I hate that so so much. Can’t they pick a really good day! Some of the bloody receivers are even really stingy and always making problems and complaints and kinda putting an act of not wanting to pay. I hate this errand SO MUCH!!!!!!

Well, I guess I cannot help it since it is kinda important day for them to attend this important function. I just have to bottle it up, suck it up and put on a fake smile tomorrow and move on with my half sucky life.

On another happy note, I am celebrating the new released album of Taylor Swift titled “Fearless”. I am listening to the new album right now and so far, I enjoy most of the songs coz they all just simply damn good and have nice melody, plus I really like her voice. One of my favourite track is “Love Story”, I post the lyrics and the video clip below.

LOVE STORY

We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes
and the flashback starts
I’m standing there
on a balcony in summer air

See the lights,
See the party the ball gowns
See you make your way through the crowd
and say hello
Little did i know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
and my daddy said “Stay away from Juliet”
and I was crying on the staircase
Begging you “Please don’t go”, and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I’ll be waiting all there’s left to do is run
You’ll be the prince and I’ll be the princess
It’s a love story baby just say yes

So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet ’cause we’re dead if they knew
So close your eyes
Let’s escape this town for a little while
Cause you were Romeo I was a scarlet letter
and my daddy said “Stay away from Juliet”
but you were everything to me
I was begging you please don’t go and I said

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I’ll be waiting all there’s left to do is run
You be the prince and I’ll be the princess
It’s a love story baby just say yes

Romeo save me, they’re tryin to tell me how to feel
This love is typical, and it’s real
Don’t be afraid we’ll make it out of this mess
It’s a love story baby just say yes,

Oh, oh

I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you was fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town, and I said

Romeo save me I’ve been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head, I don’t know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said

Marry me Juliet you’ll never have to be alone
I love you and that’s all I really know
I talked to your dad “Go pick out a white dress”
It’s a love story baby just say yes
oh, oh, yes
We were both young when I first saw you

Lyrics credit to: www.elyrics.net

Rushing the Writing Deadline!!!

HUAH!!! I’m so sleepy right now and I even overslept this morning. I was finishing my writing for my class tonight last night but I had no ideas at all for my story. Earlier I planned to write a depressing story, about a woman who just lost someone really important to her. I had the opening done by Sunday but somehow I dunno how to let the story flows by itself. I tried to be depressed many times but still, nothing happens. I even tried listening to sad depressing songs, “The Blower’s Daughter”, really like the song btw. I was listening to this song when the idea just sprung to my mind. Well… I guess I can leave it for next week. Maybe I could write a better story then.

So… last night I ended up writing a funny story, coz I really dunno what else to write. It just came to my mind. I was sitting there in front of the computer and just started typing away about mainly what I was doing before and added bits and pieces here and there and just let the story flowed by itself. And in the end, I was happy to finish the story before 12 midnight so I can sleep coz I have to work early the next day. Unfortunately, as you know, I overslept this morning hehe.

Well… at least I finished my writing task and I am happy with myself for finishing the story. I was planning to skip the class before but my brother kept saying he wouldn’t let me do that. I even used the excuse of wanting to watch the movie “Mirrors” with the free movie voucher but I decided not to watch the movie to do my writing task. But naughty me, I chatted with my friend last night so I didn’t write my story until about 10 pm. Anyway, my sister said that the story was funny and crazy. Let’s see what feedbacks I will get from tonight, hopefully good and bad too.

 

mixed problems, huh?

Still no ideas for my writing assignment next week…

Where should I find the ideas? I am still stuck in my own world. Maybe I should start writing what comes on my mind and then I fix them bits by bits. I don’t want to produce a masterpiece maybe just a piece of writing which comes from my heart and which I think is the best options.

Well… It is best if I write about that incident. I thought he knew about the big news already. I actually texted him back maybe in a wrong way and maybe he misunderstood what I meant. He got angry in saying that I was hiding something from him and I haven’t trusted him yet. That part was funny because I really was watching DVD “Red Cliff” last night and that movie actually still continued into another installment (can’t wait for it!!!!). Back to the problem, I told him not to be so sensitive and I will tell him today anyway. He just texted back “Leave it”. Not sure if he was angry or not… I’ll find out today but I was laughing last night because when I read the sms again, I was sure I misplaced the words, like sounding I was angry but I was not. I was in happy mood last night and maybe I typed the sms hurriedly and not put any attentions to it because we were going to watch DVD in a second.

Now I feel a little bit burden has come off… This is sometimes the space where I can talk freely without anyone knowing as I remain anonymous.

Wanna share a new song which I am newly addicted to… It is a new ballad by Mika Nakashima called “Orion”. The PV features the famous Japanese actress, Erika Toda, who is one of my favourite actress. Firstly, I don’t recognise her as she looks very very different with her newly curly hair but as I watched the PV further, I can see that that’s really her. This song is really good in both lyrically and musically. I haven’t heard any ballad from Mika Nakashima for a long while but this song really made me liked her best when she sang ballad songs.

My First Writing Class

Today I am very busy. I slept like a dead person last night and then could not even wake up this morning after my sister woke me up. I ended up waking up one hour later, SWEEETTT! Then, when I was already walking about halfway to the Central Station, I forgot to bring my precious mobile phone. So, I had to walk all the way up back in freezing crazy weather to my apartment and waited AGES for the elevator coz the other elevator was broken. What a great start for my day!!! Lucky for me but not for others, my train was delayed for 4 minutes.

Adding to my misery, I made tiny mistake at work where I usually never done just coz I miss the little tiny bity minuscule details. Other misery thing was that my mobile was in low battery condition. Strangely, in this low battery condition, people decided to text and even called me. Basically, my mobile was busier than before. At the end of work, the battery was very very very low…

Another miscalculation plan, I finished work 15 minutes later than I planned before. I was really rushing to get home and then changed my bag, packed all my snacks coz I gonna miss dinner, and brought a new drink. Then, quickly walked to my writing class while eating K-Time Twist and some people were even looking at me huehue.

I managed to reach my writing class 10 minutes earlier. It turned out to be quite exciting. As you know, I am quite shy and very quiet when first coming to class and in meeting new people. We have to introduce ourselves, like what we do basically and what we have to aspire by the end of the course. I dunno what craps I wrote but felt a little bit better after reading to the whole class. I got to hear many other interesting stories from other people. Some of them were really good at writing better than me.

There were many advices the tutor gave us about writing. Some interesting ones I had heard was never tried to write to please the audience when you lost yourself in doing that. Basically just do your own thing every week and let the audience catch up themselves if they do not understand. That advice actually made me relieved because that means I can write whatever I want to express and in whatever style.

Some of the quotes were very cool and thoughtful. I really like this one the most…

“I write because I hate. A lot. Hard.”

William Gass

It is almost the same as me. I write when I am sad, happy or simply full of hatred. Writing can help to calm me down sometimes. Well, those thoughts can help me in my writing assignment for next me about “Why I Write”. It is gonna be scary about reading in front of people but I will do it!!!!!!